My Passion..Sigh

Academic is really not my passion. I hate sitting and reading academic materials which I think I couldnt broaden my mind with this kind of thing. It's not that I cant study, but most of the times it wont last longer. I will attracted to do other things. And in my opinion it is because I dont have passion in this job. Frankly speaking I was not sincere when I started my PhD. Just because it's hard to get good job and I got scholarship I continue my study. If these 2 things didnt happened to me, I might not be sitting now in front of computer doing silly thing - study.

If UTM allows me to terminate my study without paying back the scholarship, I've done that!

So what is my passion? Let me list down what are things that I dont wana do. Teaching, marketing or anything related to giving oral explanation. I hate to think. I love things that comes naturally. I want to involve with NGO association. I love cooking. I love non-high-level-job. I love to have small business.

It's my today's ramble. I still dont know what I want to be. I dont wana be lecturer but what else can I be after getting my PhD? Sigh...........................

Post Election Rambling

Hello. Hi. 5th May was Malaysia election day. This is my second time voting. Went to the poll station with my sis and bro around 12pm. Not many people as my place is in rural area so there are not many voters there. For DUN it wass BN vs PAS while for parliament BN vs DAP. What I crossed? Secret lah of course :P

Around 1250 midnight they conformed that government won more than half of the chairs, but less than previous election. It was expected to be like that. And for some reasons this time election is the worst phenomenon in my country. In social media especially people saying about the misbehaved of SPR (organization that handle the election) process. Regarding "pengundi hantu" (illegal voters) from bangla, about the sudden blackout during the process of counting votes and so many more. The opposition had tried so hard to show that the election was badly managed so that government still ruling the country. At the same time also, the other side saying that all these rumors were being planned by opposition to gather people's attention to change the government. At the time I am writing this, I heard that Anwar Ibrahim (opposition leader) is going to file petition to the court for the matter. Besides I heard that people with pea mind want to get help from the white house. One of the main contributor to the fight is that about discrimination between different races in Malaysia. Malay and Chinese particularly. It's like a time bomb that can explode anytime. True what bff said to me 1 time, if Malay and Chinese fight each other, Malaysia will 'begar' (riot). I just hope the current misunderstanding can be solve quickly. People unite regardless of race or nation. The new government need to prove Malaysian what they can do, not just spending money on gaining people attention without solving the problem from the bottomline.

Some pictures from the election scene:

Campaign - notes they delivered to home

The controversial blue ink for those who voted.

Random at home. Now you know which one i've crossed :)

The night before election, we had family gathering which means foods. I'll share another time ok. 

Khoda Hafez!

28th Birthday

*delayed post

25th April i\was my birthday. It's my 28th year. How can I describe myself? I am a woman not a girl anymore. I don't know why I have this feeling, but my mind was saying that when I am entering the 28 years. Well it's better, at least I am stepping on the right ground. I mean I accept the reality that the number has grow bigger, and I should not act like a child anymore. Nowadays I prefer to call salesgirls or waitress "adik"(lil' sister) rather than "kakak"(big sister). Even sometimes people doesnt believe than I am 28. Well..thanks to collagen and "single" status. haha :-P

Even I am getting older, I enjoyed my birth day. Thanks to facebook because without that, I wont be receiving many wishes by friends. Received some presents from myself (oh yeah, I reward myself for my birthday. Just in case nobody give me present lol!), sis and of course mr. boyfriend. Bff gave me mini ipad as I told him many times I love to have one. Well that is the trick. haha. 

All in all, this is me on my 28th year of living. I hope I'll have a better life and achievement from this point onwards. Thanks for those who wished and prayed for me on my birthday. Love you all.

I chose mantou and magnae for my birthday ootd

Maash Polow.For recipe: here

Ashe reshteh. For recipe: here

Damagh-e-Kuchulu

Bff always tease me because my nose is small (kuchulu) and no bone. And my shades always slides down my nose. T____T

Hey, I am a Javanese and this is my signature!

p/s: mind my eyebrows. lol! 

Selamat Hari Lahir Abangku

After 28th April 1996, he replaced an empty place for a man called "father". The burden to take care a mom and siblings. Never I saw on his face sorrow or fear. He always did his best in performing his responsibilities. As I am the last child in the row, I received fullest attention from him. Since standard 1 until now. With a lovely wife besides him, he never neglected my needs. He is my brother, and it is more like a father in my heart. 

Happy Birthday Abang Aik..May Allah grant you all the good things in your life.

P/s: Tomorrow is my turn! Yeeeha :P 

Simple Mandi Chicken

Ingredients:

For chicken
~ Half chicken
~ 1 small onion
~ 1 inch ginger
~ 1 tsp coriander powder
~ 1 tsp cumin powder
~ 1 tsp turmeric powder
~ 1 tsp blackpepper
~ Salt
~ 1 tbsp cooking oil
~ Water

For rice
~ 2 cups of rice
~ 1 medium onion
~ 3 garlic cloves
~ Diced carrot

Methods:
1. In a pot, put every ingredients for chicken in a pot, pour water until cover the chicken. Bring to boil. Simmer for 15 minutes.
2. Take out the chicken. Set aside. Brush some oil on the skin.
3. In other pot, heat some oil. Saute onion and garlic, add carrot and pour in the soaked rice and pour some chicken broth from the earlier process. The portion of broth is depends on the rice. Adjust the water amount until the rice become aldante.
4. Place the chicken on top of the rice, lower the heat and let it steaming for 40 minutes or until you get a nice tahdig.

Very easy right? This is what I had for lunch after a bad stomach ache after eating KFC-korean style (the new type) for dinner :(

Me---FOODS---Bff How we deal to our different appetite

Last week I had a dinner at KFC with bff. After arguing about where to eat (as always), we always end up at KFC. And of course that is his choice! I realized that the most unique moment between me and bff is during time to eat. Every time, without fail we argued about where to eat, what to eat. Sometimes I found this as fun and challenging, just like I have to fight for my right. I don't know whether this thing happened to other mix-culture couples or not. But for us, yes! Because we are in "my region", I have many choices to eat. I have my favorite foods, easy to find and cheap. But for him, less choice and most of them expensive. It's not that I am a cheapo but I can't stand to eat middle eastern food regularly. The portion is too large for me, when I can't finish it would be a waste and therefore I'll eat all and results in my weight! It's a different story if I cooked it by myself. Once in a while is ok for me. Then, bff couldnt eat much Malay or fusion foods. The only "Asian" food that he never say no is tomyam and of course less spicy. Our arguments would be like this:

Me: Nahar koja berim? (Where to have lunch?)
Bff: Har koja dustari. (anywhere you like)
Me: Ok. Berim X (malay foods) (ok. lets go x)
Bff: Na...unja dusnadaram, shulughe (No, I dont like there, too crowd)
Me: Pas, to begu koja (Then, you tell me where)
Bff: Berim Y (Persian foods) (Lets go y)
Me: with a bored face..??na..unja dusnadaram, ghaza irani nemikham emruz (no..i dont like there, i dont want iranin food today)
Bff: E! (get angry) khob age injuri berim KFC (if like this lets go KFC)
Me: Have to accept..Ok..

OR

Bff: Sham koja berim? (Where to have dinner?)
Me; Berim Y (persian foods) (lets go y)
Bff: Na..to dusnadari, bekhatere man gofti (No, you dont like, you said that because of me)
Me: Na, vaghan ghaza irani mikham. mirza ghasemi mikhoram (No, seriously i want iranian foods, i'll eat mirza ghasemi) (actually yes, i said because of him, and mirza ghasemi is the simplest food less carbohidrat and fat-coz im on diet :)
Bff: Na, berim X (malay foods) (No, lets go x)
Me: Na..to dusnadari, bekhatere man gofti (No, you dont like, you said that because of me)
Bff: E! (get angry) khob age injuri berim KFC (if like this lets go KFC)
Me: Have to accept..Ok..

See..we always end up at KFC which make me sick! Lately I choose 1 piece chicken only coz I cant take it anymore (mind the calories). Bff realized this. And our arguments gets longer like this recently:

.......

Bff: E! (get angry) khob age injuri berim KFC (if like this lets go KFC)
Me: Have to accept..Ok..
Bff: Na..dusnadari KFC. Berim Z (24hrs mamak restaurant). Man emshab kheili delam KFC mikhad vali bekhatere to nemirim (with pity voice) (No..you dont like KFC. Lets go Z. Actually I really want KFC tonight but because of you, we dont go)
Me: pfttttt............

Like seriously, I dont know when we will have the same taste buds for foods. I think never! Because I am a MALAY and he is a PERSIAN!! FULLSTOP.

Life so far

After some quiet time, again I opened this blog. My mood in writing has been swing for some times due to some circumstances. It might come to the ups and down from life. My study is the biggest factor. I am so tired already, waiting to finish my proposal write up because I am lazy..too lazy. I can say the worries of life lies behind it. there's too much to think, about everything. internet could be the second factor. Everytime i turned on the computer, 80% of my time spent for un-academic sites. it's all my bad i know and i should blame myself for that. Lets move to more interesting topic rather than study.

Till then, bye!

Loobia Polow

For recipe: http://chiliandsaffron.blogspot.com/2011/05/loobia-polow-rice-with-green-beans.html

But this time I substitute meat with mince meat .

Served with salad shirazi

Have a nice food!!

Chicken in Tomato Sauce - Morgh-e-Robbi

Hehe. A funny name that I put in this recipe. I really don't know what the recipe name in Farsi. And I am not sure whether this is Persian dish or no because bff asked me to cook like this, so I consider it as Persian dish. lol. Lets check out the recipe.

Ingredients:
~ Chicken
~ 1 medium onion, finely chopped
~ 2 garlic cloves, finely chopped
~ 1 tspn turmeric
~ 2 tbsp rob (tomato paste)
~ Juice of 1lime
~Some water
~ Cooking oil

Methods:
1. Heat some all, fry chicken until brown all sides, set aside.
2. In the same pan, fry the onion and garlic, when translucent add turmeric.
3. Add the tomato paste, fry until you get the dark red color.
4. Add in the chicken, pour some water covering the chicken.
5. Let it boil, then with low heat simmer for 30 minutes until the sauce thicken.
6. 10 minutes before turning off the heat, mix the lime juice, taste with salt. Done!

Serve with your choice of salad and Persian rice. This time my tahdig come from the unfinished burger king french fries :P